This week was almost too festive. I had two holiday parties to attend, plus family obligations and parent teacher conferences. I continued to be super thankful that I am DONE with the LiveFit Program, because trying to fit daly weight training into my current schedule would have been completely nuts.
This Saturday was my first team run with my BWH Stepping Strong Boston marathon Team. We did 6 miles as the first snow of the season began, and it was so fun to meet my other teammates and to have people to chat and joke with along the route.
One thing I haven’t talked about too much is the anxiety I experience about re-injuring my leg while running. I trained for every single other race I’ve run completely on my own, but lately whenever I am running on my own I become hyper-sensitive to any and all sensations that may or may not be passing through my tibia. Without the distraction of chatty students and teammates, I spend my whole run thinking “was that…was that pain? it was pain, wasn’t it? I’M GOING TO STRESS FRACTURE AGAINNNNNN…or… oh, no, that’s just my leggings getting bunched up.” So I’m seriously so grateful that 90% of my running will be with other people this training cycle.
Anywho, here’s how this week panned out fitness-wise:
- Monday: 3 mile run + Leg Lift (I’ll post about my new weight training routines in a week or two!)
- Tuesday: 30 minutes swimming
- Wednesday: Yoga Class
- Thursday: 4 mile Treadmill Run+ Upper Body Lift
- Friday: 45 min. Spin Class
- Saturday: 6 mile team run!
- Sunday: laying around and trying to survive
- Total Weekly Milage: 13
Okay, so, the other thing I wanted to chat about is how hard the holidays can be on everyone; not just runners. On the surface level, there’s added stress coming from additional social obligations, financial obligations, and just a generally messed up schedule. For the last few weeks, for example, I have struggled to get adequate sleep on the weekends, which is when I usually catch up on my rest after a long week. And like, holiday parties are fun. But these little stressors aren’t insignificant, especially combined with other… stuff. Like grief. Or loss. Or Illness.
It has been hard for me to find the motivation and inspiration to get much of anything done lately. I swear, sometimes the only reason why I get out the door to be active is because I know I’ll have to recount my week of workouts here every Monday, and I don’t want to seem like a phony. This is the time of year when I look back at Christmas’ and new year’s past and wonder…am I moving forward? It’s no secret that I am often hard on myself; feeling like I’m not making moves on towards my goals just makes me want to hole up and stand still for a while.
Pushing past this nostalgia-induced self-doubt is the hardest part of the holidays for me. And I think other people experience similar challenges around this time of year, so I felt like I should, you know, mention it. You’re not alone, friends. The holidays can be so bright and cheery, but they can also be dark and judgmental.
So I’m just trying to remind myself each and every day that doubts and fears are not facts. I’ve been giving myself a little more love and a little more patience.And I’m trying to take in as much of the good stuff (like my adorable fur-nephew below!) as I can. And you should too:)
Thanks for reading:)
Now You Tell Me…
- Any great workouts this week?
- Running alone vs. running in a group…thoughts?
- Are the holidays challenging for you?